My 2018 New Years Resolution

A New Year!  We have lived another year or have we? Are you sure? I just spent New Year’s Eve at a beautiful hotel in new york – wyndham hotels. There were parties going on everywhere. I chose to go to a party that had live music from the 60’s and 70’s, yes, that shows my age. What was shown to me there was amazing. In one room there were the living and what I call the walking dead. That may sound like a judgment, but I call them like I see them.

The walking dead, are people who look like they are living and breathing, but are they truly living?  Watch them carefully and you will see a different story all together.   Look in their eyes.  There is no one home. They are not fully in their bodies.

I sat down at a table where there were four other couples.  I sat next to a man whom I had never met before.  He look to be in his 70’s and his wife looked to be in her 60’s. We started up a conversation.  They were wintering in San Diego, living there on their Yacht  He looked tired and held his head in his hands.  He leaned over and said to me, “I don’t know why I am here. In fact, I should have been gone years ago.”  He continued through the night closing his eyes, and looking uncomfortable.  He then got up and left the party.  His wife and the other couple left soon after.

Then there was the couple who had joined us earlier.  They were friends of friends.  We spent the weekend together.  The woman had just been diagnosed with cancer and had told her friend that she was resigned to die soon.  She and her husband sat quietly through the night, said little and did little.  When asked  to dance, they said no, you go.  The sitting went on all weekend.  When we did ask to go for a walk the next day along the waterfront, they weren’t sure they wanted to go.  They followed along for a short distance and asked to turn back.

This was the anniversary of the day I discovered I had breast cancer three years earlier.  What I came to know from going through the process of facing a life threatening disease is that you have a choice to make at that time.  I chose not to die and here I am three years later with no cancer and no disease.  I have worked to heal myself.  Yet here I was surrounded by people who did not chooselife.  Some of them were conscious of this fact and some were not.  What this showed me was that it was not enough to decide that I did not want to die.  I needed todecide that I wanted to live.  Live life to the fullest.  Dance, sing, make love, smell the roses, surround myself with others that wish to live.  That is why I called to myself the living dead.  So that it was so clear to me that I had not only chosen not to die, but I had chosen to live.

I by the way danced my heart out.  Not only did I walk along the bay in the dawn of the new year, but I danced to the music coming out of the hotels as I passed along the way.  I had made a new agreement with myself.  The agreement was to LIVE!  Happy New Year.


Ego and Enlightenment

Last week I went to listen to deborah king, internationally known spiritual teacher and modern kabbalist. The conversation of the evening was the ego and how different spiritual teachings have different ways of dealing with the ego.

She asked the room what their beliefs were in this area. One person felt that the ego must die in order for us to reach enlightenment. Another spoke about the ego must be transmuted.  Another spoke of different stages that the ego goes through, kind of like stair steps of evolution and doorways that must be passed through to reach enlightenment.

One person spoke that the ego needs to step aside for us to become fully enlightened.

I can’t begin to recount what Jason Shulman had to say about the ego and the different philosophies, I can only recount my own personal perception and reflection from the evening. First, he spoke about the ego as being a part of our earthly being, just as much as our body is.

He stated that it was a necessary part of us and that it’s function is to bring stability to our journey here on the planet.  Denial of the ego can be just as difficult a journey as denial of the physical.  I know, because I have experienced both and it was not pleasant.  I almost died twice.  When I was in denial of my ego and trying to kill it off, I felt like I was in a constant battle, a battle which was affecting my body as well.

I then came to an awareness that there was no fight needed.  I just needed to become fully aware of the ego and to differentiate between the ego and pure awareness or true knowing.  This was necessary because, as Jason Shulman pointed out in his conversation, the ego is always trying to keep homeostasis, balance, or status quo.  So if you are wishing to change, evolve, or grow, the ego is not really programmed to go there.  Status quo means staying right where you are.  Therefore when you experience that moment of enlightenment, the ego says, oh no, you have to come back to where you were before, we don’t know where that state of pure awareness, oneness, or whatever you wish to call it, will take us.  The unknown to the ego is not status quo.  Therefore you go in and out of that state of being.  Jason Shulman brought about the hypothesis that it is the ego that is doing this in attempt stabilize your being here on the planet.

This brought to mind what one of the women said about enlightenment, that it is a journey of stair stepping and going through doorways.  If the ego’s function is to stabilize our being while here in this earthly dream, then when we do take that evolutionary leap, the ego will tend to bring us back.  But once we have moved ahead in our evolution, it can not move us back completely,  It can have us down play it, have us forget some of it, but there is indeed a shift that the ego cannot change or deny.  So it settles for stabilizing us at a different level of awareness.  This is the appearance of stair stepping or progressing to different levels of enlightenment.

So if one is wishing to move to become fully enlightened or fully aware at all times without going in and out of awareness, what does one do with the ego?  This is a good topic for a Blog.

From where I am right now, I can only share my perception or hypothesize.  For the past six years I have seen my ego as an ally, it is always showing me the thoughts, ideas, and beliefs that it uses to stabilize me.  An example I believe is the belief that I must fit in and be like everyone else.  This is one archtypical thought that the ego carries.  So when we go to express our true nature and the ego checks to see if it fits in with everyone else’s nature.  We become so obsessed with fitting in, wearing the right clothes, driving the right car, living in the right car, and I can go on for years on this pattern, it is so ingrained in us.  So by the time we meet adulthood, we loose the sense of who we are and go on a search to find ourselves.  Ha, as if we disappeared.  Another ego tactic to make us think that we are in someway missing or not whole.

There is a dualistic nature to the ego.  In order to stabilize something, you must move in one direction and then if you go too far, you must turn around and move in the opposite direction.  So the opposite of the archetypical thought that we must fit in is what I call the rebel.  The rebel likes to sabotage, it likes to go against the norm, stick out, be different.  So you see one part of us is wanting to be the same while another part of us is wishing to be different.  Insanity, yes. Built right into us.  No wonder we wish to go to sleep.

By observing what is going on, I have come to accept that the ego is part of my being here in this earthly dream and I stay aware of it’s patterns and behaviors.  Just as one can exercise and eat the right foods to enhance the bodies functioning,  I have been working with my ego to release some of it’s more negative archetypes, which are just energies that carry thought or consciousness and actually reside in our physical bodies.  By doing this I have found that those patterns leave my body and never reappear.  I don’t try to kill my ego, move it aside, I work with it so that it evolves right along with me.  I accept it as a part of my earthly existence just as I accept my physical body and that is a whole new discussion.  The acceptance of the physical.

Re-Balance the Energy of the Body

It has been my path as an energy sensitive to learn how the body responds to the healing force that moves through us.  I call this life force energy. Since early childhood I have been aware of this life force energy that is around us and that moves through us.  There were places that felt good to me to be in and other places that I wished to avoid, just by the way the energy felt to me.

It was the same with people, there were those who I felt comfortable around and those who I felt uneasy around.  This was a sense that I felt when I first met them.  At an early age, I was not aware that I had the ability to sense energy or other peoples emotions but still I trusted this sense and it did indeed save my life once.

Now I know that this is a natural ability that I have and I use it to assist me in the healing arts.  By sensing and scanning the energy being emitted by the body, I can tell how the body is functioning.  If the body is in total harmony and balance, there is a beautiful flow to it.  When there is an imbalance in the body, it is as if something is blocking that beautiful flow and the energy feels disturbed and disrupted.

What I have found is that one can rebalance the energy of the body by removing the disturbed energy and replacing it with a balance flow of energy.  When I do this, I know that the body’s wisdom will direct the energy exactly where it is needed for the body’s highest good.  Since everything is actually made up of energy, some more dense than others, there isn’t anything that can not be rebalanced or returned to harmony by shifting the energy.

Another thing that I have found by doing energetic body work is that ones beliefs and emotions can have a effect on the energy of the body.  This is what led me to do work on the consciousness level.  I speak lightly about holding issues in the tissues but in my healing practice, I see that this is not just a light matter.

Pain caused by trapped energy in the body is often relieved by releasing inner conflicts caused by stored emotional issues and beliefs.  I have literally seen people’s color come back to them when they have release a old childhood trauma or past traumatic experience.  I often will have them go look in the mirror to have them see the change in their appearance, it is so overwhelming.

There was a recent landmark study done at Kaiser Permanente here in San Diego by Dr. Vincent Felitti, M.D.  The study is called The Relationship Between Adverse Childhood Experiences and Adult Health. The findings show a remarkable relationship between our emotional experiences as children and our adult emotion health, physical health, and major causes of Mortality in the United States.  It was also shown that time did not heal old wounds and that they last well into middle age and older.

It has been my experience that by working with the energy of the body, and working with the energy held in our thoughts, emotions, and beliefs, healing can occur on multiple levels.

Journey to The Pyramid of the Moon

I would like to write today about one of  the most important keys to healing from any illness.  The key is self love.  For me, it took a power journey to Teotihuacan , an ancient Aztec temple in Mexico to reawaken this love within me.  The following story if from my journal of this trip.

It happened on the fifth day of our journey in front of the  pyramid of the moon.  A fellow   traveler  from our  trip walked up to me and with great love in his eyes and said ”  I love you soooo much” I was speechless.  I just looked into his eyes and realized that this message was coming through him, not from him.  It was a universal message sent to me through a virtual stranger. Someone whom I had only met a few days ago.  I didn’t know it then but this was the beginning of my greatest AHA moment  of my life.

The plot thickens.  The Universe loves to plot.

Later that day the group went and meditated at the Palace of the Masters.  It is said that the energy or consciousness of all the masters reside in this one palace.   As I meditated I felt such love running through my heart. There was so much energy there my body actually was rocking back and forth as I meditated.  I noticed the same in others who were meditating.  When I had finished I got up and walked away and sat on the steps by myself.  I again closed my eyes wanting to feel that wonderful feeling of love in my heart again.  It came and with it came the words ” I love you soooo, much.

Margo, open your eyes.” I hesitated because I didn’t want to loose that wonderful feeling of love in my heart.  I heard it again. ” Open your eyes Margo.”  I did so and then the voice said to me, “Be awake in your dream.  You do not have to be in Meditation in order to feel this way all the time.  Look, you are here now, awake and you can still feel this Love.  Stay awake, in your body ,and feel the love.  You can feel this way everyday of your life.”  The feeling remained with me throughout the day off and on.

You thought that was good just wait, the plot thickens.

Then I went to another temple where we sat and meditated again.  By this time I had climbed the Temple of the Moon and walked several miles to arrive at this temple.  I was in so much pain and fatigue that I could barely stand when I began to meditate in front of an ancient drawing of an eagle.  As I stared at the  eagle ,  it spoke to me in my head. ” I love you soooo much”.

Suddenly, a deep place in my heart and memory opened up and with so much love in my heart I returned the statement to the eagle ”  I love you soooo much, soooo much!”?   At that moment there came the realization that I was talking to myself.  I finally realized that it had been soooo long since I truly loved myself with all my heart.  It was then that I released to the eagle all of my pain, physical and mental.  Everything that I had been through during these past several years of illness.  My body shook and raked as energy was flowing out of my body and when it was done I was calm and at peace.  I had no pain, no sorrow, only peace It was then that I knew that I had been healed.  That if I could remember to love myself ,  I would remain well.
If you thought that was good, just wait.

The next day I arrived to the same spot where the young traveler had told me that he loved me. We were again in front of the Pyramid of the Moon.  A author on the trip had asked if she could write a article for Oprah magazine about me and me and my ego had reluctantly agreed.  She asked me to stand on top of a plateau in front of the pyramid of the Moon so that she could take my picture.

Already Tired and trying to save my energy to climb the pyramid of the Sun later that day, I reluctantly climbed the stairs and stood by myself on top of this plaza.  I began to hold my arms out as if I were going to fly up to the pyramid of the Sun on top of the eagle who had helped me heal the day before.  As I did so I heard a voice inside my head say.  “Use my wings so that you might fly and use my eyes so that you might see”?.  Suddenly I felt my body fill with the same feeling as the day before.  I felt a tremendous sense of Love washing through my body.

My teacher Rita, said to me “Margo stay there.  Speak to us.” Everyone from our group turned around and watched me.  Words started coming into my head.  “I am pure love,  I love all of you,  I wish only to share with you my love .  See it, Feel it, This love is for all of you. my dear ones ”  I spoke these words to them and  raised my arms toward them as if I was hugging them all at once. As quick as this awesome power came, it went.  I then lowered my arms and descended from the plateau.

It was then that I experienced who I really was.  The spiritual being that I am,  inside the physical body.  Now whenever I doubt weather I can do something or if I can overcome   cancer.  I just remember who I really am.  You all have this in you.  You must love yourself in order to find it, but it is there.  You too are all love and are loved sooooo much by the Universe.  No one ever has to go without this love, No one! You just have to feel it from within.

The Four Agreements

It was over two years ago that I went to a book signing being given by Don Miguel Ruiz, author of the book “The Four Agreements”.  I had been invited and didn’t know anything about this man and his book, but I felt like this was a divine appointment.

The moment I set eyes on this Don Miguel, I knew that he was special.  His eyes were pouring out love to everyone in the audience.  His smile was one of contentment and joy.  As I listened to him explain the Four Agreements ( Be Impeccable with your word, Don’t take anything personally, Don’t make assumptions, and Always do your best ) I thought to myself, this is so simple, yet so profound.

One of his teachers accompanied him to the book signing, Rita Rivera, and she stated that she was taking apprentices. I knew right then and there that this was the teachings that I had been looking for.  I wanted a program that would compliment the EMF Balancing work which is spiritual energetic work that accelerates ones ability to make transformations in their life.

This program also accelerates this process and provides a easy to follow and understandable framework to make these changes.  These two processes combined greatly increases ones ability to eliminate that which no longer serves you and restores your power.

I am dedicated to the dream of heaven on earth and in support of this dream,  I am starting a Four Agreements Wisdom group.  This is a group of individuals that regularly gather with the intent of Integrating the Four Agreements into their daily lives.

Healing Pain and Learning from Defeat

I was recently in the hospital for abdominal surgery.  During that stay I found out just how powerful the body’s ability to treat pain can be. During the first 24 hours post surgery, when the anesthesia wears off, there is a period of time when my pain was so intense that the Demerol drip that they gave me did not cover the pain.

I was laying in bed in agony.  Then it dawned on me.  I do energy medicine for a living, why don’t I try to treat my pain energetically.  Luckily the surgery was on my abdomen and I was able to reach the area with my hands.  I first removed the energy imbalance and then applied hands on healing.

It was amazing  that for the first time since the anesthesia wore off, I was completely comfortable and my abdomen was relaxed.  I was able to go back to sleep for about four hours.  From that time on, every time I felt pain, I would use energy medicine to relieve it.

The nurses were surprised that I no longer requested pain medication.  I think they thought that I was hiding something stronger in my purse.  I was using something stronger, my body’s own mechanism for relieving pain.  The concentrated energy that is sent to the body signals the body that this area requires attention.

The body can more easily sense the pain and releases it’s own endorphins to relieve the pain.  This chi energy promotes the body to release these endorphins and they go directly to the site where this energy is focused.

Healing is also promoted by the use of subtle energy.    When chi energy is brought to a section of the body, the body’s circulation increases to that area, bringing more nutrients, and more of the body’s defense mechanisms for preventing infection.

Energy flow in the body follows circulatory flow. When energy is block or disrupted, the circulation can also be diminished or disrupted.  When the flow of energy is strong, so to is the circulatory flow.  This is why it is so important to make sure your energy is balanced.

Getting Healthy in 2018!

This year will be more important than ever before!The rising cost of medical care has led to the genesis of corporate medicine (HMOs) and the big question as to who is handling your medical decisions – doctors or corporate executives?

It can be disheartening for both the patient and the doctor. This is why you MUST take an active role in taking care of your health.

The following suggestions may be of help:

  • Drink 8 glasses of filtered water a day (reverse osmosis is one of your better choices).
  • Eat plenty of Complex Carbohydrates (Whole grains, legumes, beans, the less processed the better).
  • Eat organic fruits and vegetables.
  • Limited red meat and pork. Eat meat that is hormone, and antibiotic free.
  • Eat fish at least twice a week.
  • Supplement with a good multi-vitamin – one that is balanced, has a guarantee of potency and does not have any necessary additives. We have had great results with a brand called Usana.
  • Eliminate partially hydrogenated fats from your diet (Margarine) and increase the use of fats rich in mono and poly unsaturated fatty acids ( flaxseed oil, borage oil, extra virgin cold pressed olive oil).
  • Foods to avoid: white sugar, white flour, partially hydrogenated fats, artificial sweeteners, soft drinks, and highly processed food.
  • Exercise – yoga and tai chi are both beneficial for mind and body. Weight baring exercises are good for muscle and bone strength, and aerobics help strengthen your heart and circulation.
  • Get rid of toxic chemicals in your home.
  • Make sure your life has balance between productive time and leisure time.
  • Develop friendships that are supportive and uplifting. Spend time with your friends.

Live a full, healthy, productive life in the new millennium and you will not have to visit me other than to show me how healthy you are.

The peaceful coexistence of seemingly different or even opposite approaches to health care is a good standard of ‘complimentary care’.

The ancient adage of “Doctors do what Doctors do!” is truly an appreciation of their particular fields of knowledge and expertise, with an understanding that all of us, at times, need various approaches to health care and well being, to effectively receive healing and wholeness in the quickest and most complete ways we can.

The body is dynamic, always in a state of change, and always affecting or being affected by our chemistry, our structural integrity and our emotional outlook. We are all intelligent beings, with an ‘innate’ sense of wellness and value of how we truly feel when we feel good or ill.

Working with your health care practitioner, begin to discuss all the options you might explore in the realms of diet, structural integrity, and positive self imagery.